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A Fable for the Living is a story about a widow that finds a way to deal with her grief through writing letters to her dead husband. This letter to my author-self will be used similarly in that I will use this to help myself connect to a part of me that has long been dormant.
Dear Petunia, I know it has been a while since we have interacted, besides the overwhelming moments here and there over the past decade, but I look forward to getting to know you again. I have been scared in the past to get to know you well, because what if I can’t live up to the expectations you have set for me? It is more comfortable to ignore you and pretend you aren’t there then it is to acknowledge you and let you free. Please go easy on me. It has been since Kathleen’s death almost a year ago since I wrote anything. Writing now is taking me back to that day – the day that my grandmother’s last childhood friend passed away – my last connection that knew her all throughout her life. For a long time, it felt like if I kept you at bay I would be comfortable, but the more I work and write the more I remember one of my favorite quotes “a ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.” I am hesitant to step on this ship, but I know that if I am open to the process, I can sail free! One day, I hope we can live harmoniously together, but for now I think the passage is going to be tumultuous. I know the past couple of years have been rough but learning to let it out and write about it will be helpful, I promise. I want to start reading through my old journals to reconnect with you. As well as reading through old journals, I want to start journaling more again. The more writing that I have been doing, the more connected I feel to you already. Finally, I will believe in myself and ask for help when I need it. Sincerely yours, Lisa Claire
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Sabatino
2/5/2020 11:22:47
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Aysia Williams
2/11/2020 17:59:27
While I was reading this it flowed so well together and i actually enjoyed it.
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